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The · Child · Of · Dune
I don't believe in anything, and that makes me stronger than you think
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Does my punctuation really suck? I mean, do I seriously have such huge problems? Well, sorry, guys, but this is the one thing I could never learn: your commas and all that are horrible to me! I can't memorize where you need to put a comma and where you don't. And the more I read, the more confused I get since every book seems to have its own rules. Anyway, I'm awefully frustrated by all that. I hate making mistakes just as I hate someone else making mistakes if he/she claims to be a writer. Fuck... 2 more exams and I'll be free! Can't wait! I'm bored and in no mood to do anything. Been reading my copy-book in order to prepare for Russian. It's fun to read but it's a nightmare to learn. Come to think of it, it stands for every subject. According to a funny electronic problem I will get an 'F'. F for Fuck Off! Projects so far: (i) Original; (ii) Alexander/Hephaistion 3-chapters-long weird story; (iii) Snape/Lucius song-fic to MCR's 'The Sharpets Lives', oh, it fits! This last one is taking a lot of planning. It has to be about those little secrets that we keep and that spoil our lives at some point, vaguely important. Very dark and psychological. Let's see how it turns out.
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I passed! Gods, I can't remember the last time I was so nervous. Summer doesn't count. ;) But she almost didn't ask anything of me. She said I was good and attentive the whole semester. And she gave me a small Bulgarian dictionary as a present. That's cool; she remembers. I got my Alexander DVD back. Re-watched it finally. Now I feel more confident about what I write. But the guy was so talkative! Reminds me of smn. Alexander Magnus, huh? ;) Tomorrow it's History. Wish me luck... again. They're killing me!
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Finished my 2nd Hephaistion fic. It's about dreams and dying. It's already up. As usual, I was not really pleased but hell, I can't wait for this feeling to show up and tell me I'm perfect. I never will be at least while I'm alive. Tomorrow's the X-day. Latin exam. I feel so scared all of a sudden. You know this horrible feeling when you can hardly breathe despite the solid awareness that you know everything and you'll be alright? Still, I have a heartache over this whole thing. Suddenly I don't think I know the subject and I'm not sure I'll be fine tomorrow even though it's just a regular credit test with no marks, whatsoever. And of course right the fuck now I have absolutely noone to talk to! It's fucking unfair! The only thing I can possibly use to forget my fear is to chat with smn and there's noone here! Neither online nor at home. Well, Mom's at home but she's far too busy and I need just a silly chat to distance myself from what is going on. I hate feeling scared because of exams, it's a stupid sign of weakness. Wish I were like Tom Riddle, bet he was never afraid cuz he was just a damn genius! Writing my 3d Hephaistion fic! Yep, I'm on a roll. This one's gonna be longer, harder and more historical. Let's hope I don't screw things up. I hate inaccuracy. If it contains facts, they have to be real or at least pseudo-real (Hollywood style) though that's not nearly good enough. So right now I'm just angry, tired and freaked out. Why is it that if you have inspiration you have no time and vice versa? It's always like this! Wanna bet that when I have holidays, I'll have nothing to write about? We'll see, though. Okay, people, I don't wanna be boring. Just forget this whole thing. I should think of a special tag for such 'stressed' posts so that my poor f-list wouldn't have to read them. ;)
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![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) satalex, this one is especially true for you and me! ;) It really made me laugh when I saw it! |
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Just imagine that! Visions of a sick fangirlish mind! ;) Trying to come up with another Heph ficlet but the problem is I can't remember the slightest movie details. I should rewatch it or at least rewatch the 'Heph on his deathbed' scene unless I want to create a whole new episode for that. But that'd be stupid since they already have it in the movie. Truth be told, 'Alexander' fanfiction is not so much fanfiction as I think. Guys beong in history, right? It's more like real fiction, then! ^_^ It's bloody cold in the street. I spent a bit more than an hour with my friend Angel today, then my Latin studies... Boring! Yesterday was real fun! Been to the Museum of Modern Art with satalex on that exhibition dedicated to hands. A hand taken separately from the body it belongs to is a really terryfying thing! ;) And different statues of electric aliens, holograms of glasses, etc. Really cool! I've been there for 3 times already. It's one of my fav meuseums, honestly. Then there's a GULAG museum nearby. Mom and I are planning to go there, too. The problem is, last time we passed by it, it was closed. Holidays. Well, maybe next time, then.
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`The best kind of prize is a SURprise!` - Willy WonkaOkay, I still find it almost impossible to believe. I went to a book-shop today and I found no books I planned to buy. So I went to the video section and I was about to leave when I accidentally saw... it! It was Life As A House, the terrific Hayden movie I had the chance to watch once in Montenegro. I've been looking for it all over Moscow since summer. I almost lost hope to ever find it. My heart nearly stopped when I saw it on the shelf. I just stared at the DVD like a complete idiot. Then I grabbed it and ran to buy it. God, I've never been so happy! I acted like a crazy fangirl all day! Just jumping, screaming, making weird sounds like "Waaaaaaaaa!!!!" and "Yeeeeaaaaahhhhh!" all the time. Gonna watch it soon. My new crazy love is Loki, the Scandinavian god of fire and mischief. He's just so... he makes me speechless and that's what it takes for me to fall in love with a character. I promise I'll give more sensible reasons in the near future. ;) Like my opinion on the Edda and musings about Loki himself. Should I change religion? *kidding, since it doesn't mean much to me anyway*  I hope everyone had a terrific New Year (for those who do celebrate it, I mean). As for the Russians, it's the most important holiday of the year, much more important than Christmas itself. I'm far too lazy to study now. Latin comes on Wednesday, I have less than 1 week left but I just can't think of it now. What result am I to get with such laziness? Oh fuck, I just don't care now.
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Apoptygma Berzerk. 'Maze' | |
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Happy New Year to everybody! Have fun, be happy, do what you like, may all your dreams come true! Sleep at day, party at night! Love!
2007
It's a weird day for me today. First of all, last year I was very sick. I had fever on New Year's Eve so it wasn't exactly the best party of my life. I hope this one will be different. But on the brightside, I wrote my very first fanfic then. Exactly a year ago! It was a Draco/Hermione one-shot, one of the three I've written (the last and the best one is on f-f.net). This one is called 'No one Has To Know'. I'm not proud of it but still, it was my very first f-f and I was so happy when I so it posted!
Here's the link: http://www.angelfire.com/film/dhgdm/hastoknow1.htm I go by the name Raven Lock there. There's another fic of mine on that site, Forbidden Desires: A Draco/Hermione Fanfiction Archive, it was posted later. I barely even remember its name.
Second of all, I'm pretty sclerotic when it comes to anniversaries and stuff like that. I looked through my last year's diary and guess what I saw? Today's also Kris's and mine 1 year anniversary! Pretty cool.
I'm still terribly sorry for those gift fics I haven't posted yet. I'm a slow runner. You'll have all your presents, guys!
Love!
P.S. Happy Birthday, Frostleaf!
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I had a lovely Christmas. I was supposed to have a history test on Monday so I was pretty nervous about it. Just after I went out of the house, I slipped and fell and broke my eye-brow. I didn't totally comprehend what had happened at first. My head hurt but not too much. Some people came over and started asking how I was feeling, if I was dizzy or something. I raised my hand to touch the broken brow, I thought there'd be bruises, but they told me it was bleeding. My hand came away really stained with blood. I still hesitated whether I should go home or to uni as I had planned. Luckily I went home. The entire right side of my face was covered in blood and the brow was stinging and throbbing. I called Mom who unfortunately was at Terror's (my grandma and grandpa's) and she hurried back home. I washed the blood off by the time she was home so she didn't really freak out. Wish I had a camera, though. It was worth seeing. ;) I'm trying to be optimistic about such things. The brow still hurts but mainly if I touch it. I didn't get concussion, hopefully, though my head hurts sometimes but that's minor inconvenience. I have to wear a plaster now but it definitely looks better than the open wound. So no worries. ;) I'm used to having my inspiration attack me in the wrong places. Yesterday I finally started working on a Hephaistion fic. It hit me during HR class. She didn't pay much attention to me after I told her my compostion about a fav book (picked Susanna Clarck). I was supposed to write and then retell but I was so busy I forgot. So I just made the whole thing up in 5 min. She'd better get used to that. ;) So, the fic is rather short and incredibly sweet. I'll finish typing it soon and it'll be posted in . I finshed my work! Whoooooo! And New Year is approaching. I haven't bought presents yet but I'm working on it.
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 Hey guys! Merry Christmas to all of you! I wish you all the best, all you've ever wanted for yourself, may all your dreams come true and may you be happy forever! I hope you all have fun. Congrats to those who are already on holiday; good luck and mental strength to those (like me!) who have loads of exams coming. ;)
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Fall Out Boy. 'Nobody Puts Baby In The Corner' | |
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I feel like poor Potter on my userpic! My head hurts like hell. I've been trying to gather info on those films we need for tomorrow's stupid credit test on film-class - well, there's nada! We found out that the test takes place at 9 a.m. Whoever thought of this is scheduled for total obliteration! Hey, person, know that I hate you! I got a wonderful present from Nox satalex. 3 pics of Hephaistion! Go check her LJ right now and see how wonderful they are! He almost looks alive there!  Funny how we both like him. He's just so great! I feel horrible. I gotta go before I start seeing black spots here. My head hurts like hell, and I don't wanna go anywhere tomorrow. Last night we had full winter, today's another bout of spring. Weather can be a merciless killer.
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We walked as if we both were heavily drunk! It was funny. We nearly bumped into a truck on way to the Underground. Latin has killed whatever braincells we had left. ;) We went to the book-shop and I bought 'Inheritance' book 2, 'Eldest'. It's funny, a few days back I told a friend of mine (several friends of mine, in fact) that there wasn't 'Eldest' to find anywhere in Moscow in English and I didn't wanna read it in translation. Well, it's been over a year, I guess... over 2 years, since I read 'Eragon'. Time to go on. ;) The book seems to be pretty interesting. I had little time and I watched the movie. God, it's just H-O-R-R-I-B-L-E! I was so disappointed! What have they done to a good book!!!??? And the guy who played Eragon... I hated him! He's such a Simple Simon! If Nox influenced me into thinking Will Turner was an idiot, who'd that guy be? I mean I was prepared to dislike the outcome but not that much! The only thing that seemed okay to me was Saphira! But she was far better in the book, still. I wish I could draw. I'd draw Eragon's *normal* portrait! My back hurts like hell and I don't know why. There's nothing I can do about it. Damn exasperating! Our EP things are totally settled. We'll only have to drop by when they have a credit test in Jan. She'll give us our marks just for appearing there. The next term we'll be free to attend 3d course lessons! I've tried an MSN vampire rpg with a friend of mine. It seems to be pretty exciting. My character is a young fledgling vamp named Adrian (so far) who's a total wreck! Honestly, he's gonna get himself badly injured or even killed quite soon, I'm afraid. What am I to do, I just sympathize with idiots! ;)
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Tomorrow's another X-day, hell. We talked to the Dean, she seemed to approve of our affair with 3d course. I guess we'd better start next semester. There's really no point going there now seeing there's only 1 lesson left and it'd be our History final. Ooh-ooh! Just remembered old influences, the music I used to listen to. Funny thing, actually: I don't listen to HIM now as much as I did several years ago, though I still like them. And I remember The 13th Floor, good film, though not so huge a sci-fi as Matrix was. And I still don't understand where the hell HIM's song there is.  I couldn't decide which version of 'Join Me' video I liked better - the 'blue' one or the 'green' OST one. ;))) My pinkish carnations are barely alive now. White roses (Dad's birthday present) even less. Just why do flowers have to wither? ;) The roses will soon join my collection of dry flowers. It's rather big now, mostly white and dark-red roses, some field flowers and dry herbs like feather grass. Gee, I hate tests!!! I'm still not sure if I know enough but I wouldn't wanna fail. I mean, come on! It's English! I'm like straight A in English, always was, forever will be! But I just hate phonetics.
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My pirate name is:
Black Mary Vane
Like anyone confronted with the harshness of robbery on the high seas, you can be pessimistic at times. You tend to blend into the background occaisionally, but that's okay, because it's much easier to sneak up on people and disembowel them that way. Arr!
Get your own pirate name from piratequiz.com.part of the fidius.org network |
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As you're all probably very tired to hear already, my fanfic LJ is called istne_pieklo. That's Polish for 'real hell'. I took that name because my sister advised that I should take it. That's a cool name, in my opinion! ;) Well, a person from Poland (obviously) reviewed my old SW fic 'On A Rainy Day'. The review is a complete praise, I loved it... after I ran to the kitchen and asked Mom to help me translate it because it was in Polish! The person saw the name of my LJ (cuz there are links to it everywhere where there is moi) and decided I was from Poland. That's okay, fortunately, I have Mom who knows Polish. ^_^ I was really pleased with that review. 1) It's extraordinary; 2) It says my fic's good; 3) The person promised to read the others, too. Currently I'm almost not working with SW but I'm never planning to stop forever. So keep waiting! ;)  The week-end is here! Hoorah! Skipped Russian today, I just had so much work to do I couldn't stay there! I hope the teacher won't have my blood for that.
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The gift fics, my friends, is the worst thing I've come across so far! Honestly! Writer's block follows me like a ghost of communism (sorry, just recalled an old Russian anecdote ^_^) and there's absolutely nothing I can do about it! It's horrible! I have to write about 5 or 6 gift fics (not because those people asked me to, of course, but because I really want to!) but it's almost the same as writing by request for me - i.e. impossible! I feel like an idiot. I usually hate my own works and how can I possibly present any of my friends with smth that I myself hate? ^_^ A paradox! Nevermind, regular bitching! ;) Just watched POTC-1 in English! Terrific! Jack is a sweetheart! Somehow he's far more sober in the first movie. Love his voice, BTW. Promised to tell you about Birthday presents, didn't I? Well, I haven't got much so far. Mom and Dad (love them) gave me an MP3-player (GBD is my witness, I needed one!), now I walk about as a freak listening to my fav songs all the way to uni! + a licenses box-set of Lost! Hoorah! Sawyer's got a weird voice. Money from Terror as usual. And Nox gave me a book about supernatural creatures ( when I opened it I came across a weird bald little guy who looks exactly like Gollum!). It looks expensive. I gaped at it for a long time. You really didn't have to, but damn, I LOVE it! She also gave me a copy-book and a pen. That's an ideal present since I'm always in need of both pens and copy-books. I'm still out to get more gifts. Christmas is coming! Gift fics, ahhh! I'm just kidding, I'd love to write them, but who'd know it'd be so hard!? Friending frenzy at ![[info]](http://stat.livejournal.sup.com/img/community.gif) darklord_news is really cool! Things like that make me happy. Maybe I'll be able to promote my ![[info]](http://stat.livejournal.sup.com/img/userinfo.gif) istne_pieklo finally? ^_^ Anyway, life's better than it seems though terms... terms? terms!!! :-D
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Great! Just great! I added a post about my birthday and this blasted thing has just erased it. To hell with it!
Happy birthday to Alex (we share the same date) and my love Brian Molko from Placebo!
Thanx to everyone who has congratulated me, it's such a wonderful feeling to wake up to a load of SMS, online-postcards, etc. The only thing I hate is phonecalls. My relatives tend to distract me from whatever I'm doing at the moment with banal and boring well-wishing. Like today! ;)
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...since a book has made me cry. Films - yes, but books. God, it has to be a really vivid book! Well, I found the one. It's 'Bartimaeus Trilogy' book 3, 'Ptolemy's Gate'. 
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Hey, everyone! I surely hope you missed me!
I had a computer-killing-me-like-it-usually-does problem that decided to become a very huge problem. I couldn't get online for 4 days! God, seems like I missed something grand like an earthquake. F.ex. LJ's new Christmas style, very cute, BTW. Sorry for not being able to comment your posts, there's so much of them. We'll have a fresh start if my 'baby' doesn't crush again, okay? Really glad to be back, anyway.
Terms are coming. It's freaking me out.
Hooray! I can download videos from Youtube now, thanx to satalex![[info]](http://stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) . Cool! Already seen some cool vids there. Especially Rammstein 'Corpse Bride'. It's just so weird but well-done.
My mail is a disaster. I just got too many letters, I don't know how I'll be able to read all that.
Yesterday was a terrific day! Thank you, You Know Who You Are! ;)
We have an ambitious plan to write a sequel to Tim Burton's 'Vincent'. Actually I have no idea how we're gonna do smth as remarkable and original, besides we got no idea what it's gonna be about, but hell, I love challenge. Wish me luck! ;)
Can't believe it's more than a week...
Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes...
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I've been playing with this idea for 2 weeks, no less. Of course, I had no idea what title to choose and how to finish the story but I could wait no longer. So here it is. Title: “Fly With Me” Author: Shaitanah Rating: G Summary: “It’s just 2 or 3 seconds of abyss before I fall just like anybody else does”. He could never raise up high before she agreed to fly with him. Please, R&R! A/N: This is just a random weird idea of mine. If you want to consider it a fanfic, squint really hard and you might actually see Clark/Lana from ‘Smallville’. But actually this is original cuz I don’t like that pairing. Feedback, people! Remember that! You'll make my broken heart sing! ;)
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